I've been very thoughtful lately. I've been reflective as I make plans for the future. As I registered for second semester a few weeks ago, it suddenly hit me....I'm halfway done with college. The real world seemed closer and I became more afraid. Well maybe not afraid.
Anxious?
Yes that is a better word.
I'm anxious about the future.
I'm anxious about not fulfilling my dreams.
As I sat and pondered over what is to come, the verse from Ecclesiastes came upon my heart.
"For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under the sun." (Ecclesiastes 3:1; NLT)
Why is it that I doubt my dream? Why is it that I waste my present time worrying about the future that is not yet there? As cliche as it sounds....the present is a present because we cannot change the past nor can we predict the future. All we do is dream and plan. As I am reading a book about women and our way of thinking, it seems that we're programmed to automatically self-doubt ourselves. We shrink back in fear upon achieving something or worry that our decisions now could later affect a family or marriage. At least that's been my own train of thought recently. That's not healthy though and it does nothing to benefit me. It only ruins the life I am living right now.
The same goes for any young girl who ruins her present gift for worrying about the future or regret of the past. Perhaps there is truth in the studies that we as girls and women let our inner voices dictate negative thoughts for our future. If it is true, then we need to reprogram those voices. We need to begin to teach our daughters, sister, friends, mothers, family friends and any woman we know to allow a positive inner voice to be the only voice that the ears hear. Tune out anything else.
Let's inspire each other to dream by dreaming ourselves. If each woman were to only do that...could a chain reaction occur? If a daughter saw her mother achieving a lost dream, wouldn't she be inspired to keep pursuing hers?
I'm calling this proposal the Voice Project. When you speak, speak loudly and clearly about YOUR dream.
My dream is to become a broadcast reporter upon completing my Bachelor's in English with a double minor in Journalism and Women and Gender Studies. I want to use this interdisciplinary study to report on women's news in the future. All my segments I want to be news that pertains to the woman. Whether this be health, resources, etc...whatever is relevant to the current community. I want to return to my roots and give back to the women of my area. What news pertains to them and their needs? That's what I will report on.
What's your dream? Don't be silent.
Voice it.